....Ya Allah....

originally uploaded by GieL.

All praises are for you Allah, how I hope that you are there.
For sinful though I know I am, your displeasure I can not bear.
Never, till this moment, did I realize how much I've strayed.
Never, till now, was I more conscious of all those times when I should have prayed.
For sins are like heavy baggage, that one carries through Life, the airport.
Why didn't I realize sooner, that Earth is but a place of sport?
Ya Allah ! Forgive me. Save me from the fire of Hell.
Forgive me as you did my parents, from Jan'ah though they fell.
Ya Allah ! Protect me. From myself for my soul is weak.
Ya, Allah! Please help me. For I don't understand and thus, I fear.
What happened to all those moments when I never doubted that you were near ?
My actions once were guided, by my faith which, once, was strong.
Ya Allah! please guide me . What happened, what went wrong ?
Each footstep that I used to take, I took with you ever near my side.
The Quran was my faithful companion, Rasoolallah my beloved guide.
How I yearn for those bygone days Allah, for I know that the day comes near
When we'll each receive our just rewards, and Truth will stand sparkling clear.
Life is like a spider's web Allah. We get caught in its tricky snare
So thoroughly are we disillusioned, time for salat we can not spare.
I sit here and I wonder, Ya Allah! Why did I fall so low ?
What happened to my faith Allah? Where did my Iman go?
In this earthly life of ours, so often does sin seem right.
Falsehood seems to be the truth, as if days are confused with night.
Ya Allah ! Our creator, we are all just peices of clay.
Please help us with our steps in life, and let us not lose our way.
All praises are for you Allah, I know that you are near.
I know that you have read my heart, and my words I know you hear.

Inilah aku, sekian abad dari masa-Mu, dalam tubuh ringkih yang penuh dosa, dengan lidah kelu yang tercemari dusta, dengan mata dan telinga, kaki dan tangan yang aku gunakan dalam nista...aku beranikan menyeru-Mu meskipun besar rasa malu'ku, aku kuatkan menyapa-Mu betapapun kotor diri'ku....

:: I'm Alone ::

originally uploaded by GieL.

The clouds are clearing, but I'm alone....
The stars are dancing, yet I'm alone....
The moon is smiling, still I'm alone....
Heaven, please help for I'm all alone...

:: Manusia Bodoh ::

Dahulu terasa indah tak ingin lupakan
Bermesraan selalu jadi satu kenangan manis
Tiada yg salah, hanya aku manusia bodoh
Yang biarkan semua, kini permainkanku berulang-ulang kali
Mencoba bertahan sekuat hati
Layaknya karang yg di hempasan ombak
Jalani hidup dalam buai belaka
Serahkan cinta tulus di dalam hati
Tak ayal tingkah lakumu buatku putus asa
Kadang akal sehat ini tak cukup membendungnya
Hanya kepedihan, yg selalu datang menertawakanku
Dia belahan jiwa tega menari indah di atas tangisanku
Tapi sampai kapankah ku harus, menangungnya kutukan cinta ini
Semua kisah pasti ada akhir, yang harus di lalui
Begitu juga akhir kisah ini, yakin ku indah
Bersemayam dalam kalbu......

:: Bosanmu ::

Bosan, itukah yang merasuk dalam alam sadarmu...?
Ketika bunga-bunga tak lagi mekar dan harum seperti dulu...
Ketika rindu tak bergelayut dihatimu selalu?
Kebosananmu adalah kejujuranmu akan kata yang terangkum satu...
Dalam tiap kepingan letih jiwa yang terpadu dalam waktu...
Hingga hening membawamu pada malam yang menidurkanmu....
Aku yang disini tetap sendiri menatap langit gelap dimalam hari...
Menanti setitik sinar dari sekian banyak kerlip bintang disana...
Mengharap sinar itu akan memantulkan rinduku dalam tidurmu...
Merangkulmu dalam bosanmu yang mengendap perlahan di hatimu...
Mungkin bunga-bunga itu menjadi layu karena syairku...
Dan rindumu padam karena lembaran puisi-puisiku...
Meredup perlahan dicelahan sinar matamu....
Menjadikan bosan yang kini bertahta dalam hatimu...
Jangan biarkan bosan itu redupkan segala cintamu....
Jangan relakan muak itu hancurkan segala rindumu untukku...
Jangan pernah merasa layu karena bintang tak lagi sinari hatimu...
Aku yang diselimuti syair-syair tak mahir mencoba mendekapmu hingga akhir....
Meski aku dengan kedua mataku tertunduk menatap rindu....

...Keeping Stay Alive...

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originally uploaded by GieL.

[...Aku bicara pada diriku, dimalam hari saat semuanya telah terlelap dalam tidur tapi aku tetap masih terjaga dalam rasa. Rasa yang mungkin sulit untuk dijabarkan dengan kata...]




Giel....
You're different because you're a special
Only God can judge you, not them!!!!!
Make them away from your mind.
Whatever they said, don't punish your life with their words
Remember, you have along way.
Just put yourself in right direction, so you wouldn't miss out!!!!

You still you.
They can not change you with they stupid words
Only God knows what's happening in you
Just communicate with him.

Remember, after every strom they'll be a rainbow in the end!!!!
Maybe God had another secrets for you
Open your mind, do it every single thing that you think fine and convinience in your life.

Aku adalah manusia berirama....
Sama sepertimu...
Saat ku gembira, aku kan tertawa...
Saat ku berduka, aku merasa satu-satunya yang terluka
...Bahkan kecewa....
Berimajinasilah dalam sudut dimensimu,
Percayalah dan ingatlah..
Satu,
Cinta Tuhan...
Dalam cinta-Nya terdapat penyelesaian dari setiap persoalan....