Aku mencintaimu dengan caraku, dengan cara bagaimana ketulusan itu membimbingku. Cinta tidak melepaskan apa yang ingin kita genggam juga tidak menggenggam apa yang ingin kita lepas, cinta itu membebaskan, mencintai Tuhan sekaligus makhluk'Nya bukanlah kesalahan! Jadi? Jadi maafkan aku jika kau mau...

Friday, December 31, 2004

....Ya Allah....



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All praises are for you Allah, how I hope that you are there.
For sinful though I know I am, your displeasure I can not bear.
Never, till this moment, did I realize how much I've strayed.
Never, till now, was I more conscious of all those times when I should have prayed.
For sins are like heavy baggage, that one carries through Life, the airport.
Why didn't I realize sooner, that Earth is but a place of sport?
Ya Allah ! Forgive me. Save me from the fire of Hell.
Forgive me as you did my parents, from Jan'ah though they fell.
Ya Allah ! Protect me. From myself for my soul is weak.
Ya, Allah! Please help me. For I don't understand and thus, I fear.
What happened to all those moments when I never doubted that you were near ?
My actions once were guided, by my faith which, once, was strong.
Ya Allah! please guide me . What happened, what went wrong ?
Each footstep that I used to take, I took with you ever near my side.
The Quran was my faithful companion, Rasoolallah my beloved guide.
How I yearn for those bygone days Allah, for I know that the day comes near
When we'll each receive our just rewards, and Truth will stand sparkling clear.
Life is like a spider's web Allah. We get caught in its tricky snare
So thoroughly are we disillusioned, time for salat we can not spare.
I sit here and I wonder, Ya Allah! Why did I fall so low ?
What happened to my faith Allah? Where did my Iman go?
In this earthly life of ours, so often does sin seem right.
Falsehood seems to be the truth, as if days are confused with night.
Ya Allah ! Our creator, we are all just peices of clay.
Please help us with our steps in life, and let us not lose our way.
All praises are for you Allah, I know that you are near.
I know that you have read my heart, and my words I know you hear.

Inilah aku, sekian abad dari masa-Mu, dalam tubuh ringkih yang penuh dosa, dengan lidah kelu yang tercemari dusta, dengan mata dan telinga, kaki dan tangan yang aku gunakan dalam nista...aku beranikan menyeru-Mu meskipun besar rasa malu'ku, aku kuatkan menyapa-Mu betapapun kotor diri'ku....